-feeling of hurt-

now..
5am in the Sunday morning...
didn't sleep for whole night..
after i saw someone's blog...

i always think that...
i can let it go...
i can put it down...
hmm...
but...
i was wrong..
totally wrong...
it's very hurt when i saw something....


within the 2 months ago...
i always go out for entertainments..
never wana to stay at home...
never wana to think...
used up all of my money...
hang out with frens...
hurts my mum cuz i never stay at home...
never had dinner at home for few months...
never study...

while time is passing...
i really thought that..
i had adi put it down...

in fact,
i'm not...
i thought time can cure everything...
but ..
not for me right now...
hard for me to put down this r/ship..

i just...
miss her....
missing her right now...


there was a lot of misunderstanding happened between us,
&
she was not to solve it...
but just end up everything by broke it up

i always tell myself, ask myself how to make her feel better, happier..
but
everything, effords that i did in this r/ship end up with zero...
sigh..

maybe...
it's our fate..


our memories...
flashing in my mind...
scene by scene
i juz miss the time...
the time we were together...
the things we did...
the incidents that happened to us..
the places we went...
the events we celebrate...

yet,
u're currently fairly hapi..
enjoying ur life..
guess that u hav ur lover...
n
i shouldn't cum n mess up ur life...
wishing that he will treat u better...
even better than me...

as in,
i'm goin off...
leaving from kl...
we might be not contact to each other..
it might be the end of our story..
so..
all the best...
in ur everything...
in ur life...

just wana say..
i miss u ...
n
i "heart" u





-drew-